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The 50 shades of Depression -- #Guilt

Now we all have heard about getting dumped, getting depressed. But have you ever went into depression after dumping someone?

This is the story of someone very close to my heart. Let's call them X. Now, X falls for Y.
Cause those are the two most commonly used variables in Algebra. ( Hey!  I love Math, and it's really close to my heart. )

I could try to explain the phases of a relationship in terms of the bacterial growth curve.

  • The time taken for the feelings of love to evolve ( The lag phase - Caution! Some resistant might not have this). 
  • They have their rapidly ascending phase ( Log phase - basically the exponential phase of being all the lovey-dovey!
  • Then that plateau ( Stationary phase - where you're content with things but you know it's going nowhere. And it's mundane)
  • Then comes the rapid/slow fall ( Decline phase - when they have exhausted each other, and there is nothing left to hold on to). 
  • The last phase is necessarily followed by the inevitable break up.

Now that was the relationship as a whole. But if I make the same graph, only taking the two individuals as my variable then there are high chances that they won't be symmetrical or overlapping. There might be differences in any or all of the phases. Now, when this occurs it gives rise to the deadly depression.

Getting back to the story. X and Y went through all the phases of the bacterial growth curve. But like almost every other story, their individual graphs had a major split. Let's skip ahead to the stationary phase. Now either you can go into the decline phase ( most common ) or you can relapse the growth and rise a little higher. So if the X and Y graph go in the two opposite directions, you can imagine the havoc it would cause. Mighty mess.

That is what happened with X and Y too. X went up. Y went down. But it is not as simple. Cause it's not the story of two bacteria, right? Humans are much much more complex. A lot of other factors are present. Say there is a Z variable? That can give rise to guilt. Given that the person has even the tiniest of conscience. You get my point.

Let's set it straight. X took the ascending graph. X had an equation with Z. X jilted Y. Looks so straightforward right. But then why did X almost succumb to depression? The answer lies in the complexity of the human mind --- It is guilt. Guilt is a powerful factor which can lead to the feared pitfall that is depression.

Only the depressed person can get himself/herself out of depression. No one else can. And in this case, you need to come up with an innovative plan to alleviate your misery!

It's all about the perception. And the perspective. 


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